Understanding The Drama In Life

Finally...I did it!! The pain has gone. The tooth that has been giving me trouble for the past couple of days, has finally been extracted. I am glad I made the right choice by stepping into his clinic this morning despite having butterflies in my stomach eversince I had the pain. That is not so difficult, isn't it? All I need is to gather some courage and confidence in facing the pain. And now, it is totally gone!! How simple! If only the pain I have in my life can be easily removed or extracted like my tooth...If only I knew to which doctor or dentist I could refer to, in hoping either one of them can remove my decaying emotions permanently. If only the magic touch could work well in taking away my pain and calamities. Wouldn't it be awesome? Life would be easier, the agony will not be prolonged!! Too tired. I wanna sleep.

I have spent couple of days and nights agonizing over whether or not to take my first step to meet the most feared man, to me at least, each time the ache starting to get stronger. Oh God, he is the last person on earth I wanted to be with. I have avoided as much as possible from meeting this particular man. Why now??? But last night, I don’t think I can avoid him any longer. The pain has started to become worse; the aspirins I took to soothe the pain do not seem to be working. After spending two sleepless nights, I finally have decided to meet him. Yes, I am meeting you this morning. I am ready now! I am ready for you to extract my troublesome tooth, dear dentist!!

Who can defeat the power of nature? To all of you who has lost everything in your life, there is nothing left to say but be patient. Whatever happens, happens for a reason, that is what people use to say. However, not all "Rita" storms out in a rage like that. Even if she did, it does not take that long before she gets back to her senses. To you out there [you know who you are], do show me some signs that you are not affected by this disastrous nature, do give me some signals that you are on the safe ground. May you and your beloved be protected by the Almighty always.

Am I stupid or what? Something in me has died. It must have been my heart. Damn!! Living and working with a non-beating heart? How can you survive? It is never easy; barely have enough air to breathe now. Take heed my heart. You have been ripped and shredded to pieces constantly. It’s not a surprise that you are traumatized. What hurts more than losing you is knowing that you're not fighting to keep me. People tend to let go things easily. And recently someone with a permanent head damaged has severely done the same to you, my poor heart. God knows why…My bad luck? My fate? As usual, questions left unanswered. The moral value of the story is….be careful to whom you share your heart with, be careful to whom you give your heart to so as not to get it broken. Because broken hearts do not have spare parts!! The question is...where do broken hearts go? I wanna sleep.

Ternyata aku makin cinta cinta sama kamu hanya kamu seorang kasihku tak mahu yang lain hanya sama kamu kamu yang terakhir yang kucinta...

Sometimes in one point of your life, you feel like you have been stabbed from the back, you feel betrayed by someone whom you trust and found yourself all alone. The person takes you for a swim in the sea but let you drown. Leaving you in the middle of the rough sea, gasping for air and struggling for your life…he swam away... You are a prisoner in your own mind, you are trapped in a world of anger and depressed, not knowing what to do, not knowing where to go. You are completely lost. Your soul seems to wonder about and you sometimes feel like your life is blown by the breeze, like a feather. He abandons you… It is times like these that you long to be close to God and need Him to take you into His arms. It is times like these that you question God why bring such sorrow into your life. Oh dear Lord, I complain my grief to you. Whisper to me that all these sufferings I’m going through will soon slips away. Take the black clouds away from me. Please give me the strength to face these he...

Dearest Moon, As I gazed upon your bright shiny face that night, slowly I begin to wonder if you ever realized how much you mean to me. You are so inspiring; I can never resist your moonlight. Who can anyways? I envy you, dear moon. You are never alone. You have dazzling beautiful stars all around you, ready to be at your service. If only I could be there with you, if only I could be one of your lucky stars, I would be grateful to brighten you with my little light till it burns away. Alas, a dream will only remain a dream. You are too far beyond my reach. You are indeed my unreachable, my untouchable moon. My wings aren’t strong enough to take me to you. What is left for a swan like me is only to have your glittering reflection upon my dark, mysterious lake. And wherever your moonbeam falls, that is where you will find me, that is the nearest I could get to you. Your everlasting admirer, Swan Princess

Have you ever dreamed of being alone stranded on an isolated island? What would you do if you were to be in that situation? Do you think you can survive? If I were to ask myself these questions, my answer would definitely be no. I don’t think I can survive there…alone!!! No way José!! I don’t think I have the courage to do so. I remember watching the movie “Cast Away” starred by Tom Hanks, couple of years ago. Even though it was only a movie, I admire the courage and determination of the main character. He survived the plane crash, which I think by luck, and he managed to survive on the deserted island all by himself. What I learnt from the movie is that man can survive alone, physically but still needs a friend to communicate with, which I believe to be one of the most important elements in life. Having to watch the movie somehow has given me the chance to think of how important it is to have the strong will power; the courage and determination, the creativity in utilizing the things ...

When she was young, she was surrounded by many and yet still she was lonely but she survived somehow. When she was young, she fell in love, never thought it would be gone, she was lonely but she survived somehow. One fine day, he came to take her away and she has no say but to follow and obey she was lonely but she survived somehow. Thinking his love would come her way his love would brightens her day. Yet deep in her heart the loneliness would not go away been haunting her every single night and day. He knows she exists but does he really care? No more words she promised Not that she wouldn’t dare but the pain she had was nothing beyond compare. Sailing and sailing, drifting apart… further and further each day, and yet he is proud to say “You are mine in every way!” ~swan princess~ It is never easy to reach someone who is near, yet so far. It is never easy to sail in a boat without the oars. It is never easy to swim in the stormy sea and not get drowned. It is never easy to get back ...

Sitting here in my room, wanting so much to write something, anything…anything at all. But why there is a voice deep down in my heart tries to stop me from doing so? Why do I feel so empty, so lost? The laughter of my friends could reach my ears but why do I not hear any sound? There are many around me but why do I not see anyone? There is so much pain but why do I not feel anything? What is going on here? Have I gone insane? I wanted to cry but why do my eyes not shed a tear? The coldness, the numbness… slowly creeping, making their way into my veins, run through my blood, spreading deeper into my lost soul. Everything seems dead, or is it just me?