Enggan


Sitting in my room, feeling trapped as usual. I don't feel like doing my revision tonight. I am feeling sick and depressed. The song on the radio catches my attention. I wish I can download the song here on this page of mine. Its title is "Enggan" which means "Do not want to". I am not sure who the composer is, but she/he sure writes beautiful love songs. Anyways, here is the lyrics that I found here in the net.

Enggan berterusan
Dalam penasaran
Dalam kegelapan
ku tercari

Enggan ku mencari
Dalam penyiksaan
Kini cinta
ku masih gelisah...

Enggan dipersia,
enggan berkelana
Semarak cinta belum terbela
Ku sentiasa akur berdoa
Enggan kecewa

Nak ku mimpi tapi enggan terlena
Ku dan sepi nan terintim
Ku disaksi oleh jelapang kasih
Nan terbentang kekeringan

Aku sebenarnya insan yang dahaga
Cinta tapi tidak terdaya
Mestikah aku yang dulu meluahkan
Jalan cintamu enggan mengundang...

Engkau dah berteman aku merasakan...
Cintamu masih berkelana
Cuba kau nyatakan walau kepahitan
Asalkan terjawab persoalan
Makin membuahkan keresahan
Tabir cintamu belum terbuka
Sedang masaku makin terbuang...

Enggan kau mengulas
Enggan ku terbilas
oleh madahmu yang berkias
Ku sentiasa akur menanti
Sehingga jelas...

Someone made me feel this way. I hate myself for this. If its meaningless to you then please do not add more pain into my life. Let me go...release me...

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