Understanding The Drama In Life

Sometimes people can be so disrespectful simply because they are mad and angry at a particular someone. They will find ways to hurt or to provoke by leaving comments and saying mean things which is always untrue. I have encountered this kind of people in my life before. Well so far, only one actually. And that single one, I can say he is nothing but a bloody bastard. Ooopss… pardon my language. But that is what he really is. I know he keeps reading and going through this page of mine simply because he has no other way to reach me. Yes, I have blocked his number, his emails and I have no regret in doing so. Well, to that f***ing bastard, I want you to know that my life is so much easier and happier now since I abandoned your insincere friendship. Since you are already at the edge of your grave, I pardon you. Take this little time you have left in this world to think about what you have done to the people around you. Repent while you can. I know and I understand a person who is frustrate...

Some of my Malay poems, written 16 years ago. Found them in one of my old diaries. DI KAMAR SEPI Di kamar sepi, terlantar duka Masih mencari-cari, masih tertanya-tanya Bagaimana kehilangan bisa terjadi Antara dua insan saling mengasihi. Gugur dan layu dihembus sang bayu Kehilangan masih dirasai Biarpun masa silih berganti Namun kedukaan masih terpahat di hati. Kini... Mentari cerah kembali Mengharapkan sebuah sinaran yang pasti Tetapi... Apakah kasih sayang setulus hati Yang suatu ketika pernah kumiliki Akan menjadi milikku lagi? HARAPAN ATAS SEBUAH KEGAGALAN Atas kejatuhan nan lalu Atas kehancuran nan lepas Kugagahi terus melangkah Meninggalkan nostalgia Manis bagai madu, dibelai mesra selalu Pahit bagai hempedu, tertusuk duri sembilu Kumara jua kehadapan Tanpa menoleh kebelakang Harapan setinggi gunung Agar mentari yang bersinar kini Menyingkir awan kelabu yang menyelubungi Pergi jauh dari pinggir hati... LUKISAN SEBUAH POHON HATI Perasaan baru menghijau Kasih mula berputik Rindu kia...

Today is his 69th birthday. When asked what does he want for his birthday, he replied, "nothing expensive". A very humble person he is. That is one of his many good qualities. The following short and simple poem is dedicated to this humble and respected man, though the person himself may not read it. Nothing expensive from me. My jackets are made of leather, My cups are made of porcelain clay, Storm or sunshine, any kinds of weather, May the Lord bestows upon you a blissful and prosperous birthday! Happy birthday dear Prime Minister. It is sad to know the hardship you have gone through in your political life, but at the same time I am impressed with your strong personality in facing those calamities. May you have a smooth sailing in your journey of life. ~Swan Princess~

Love is the greatest gift of all. The gift that keeps me going through the rough times, offers me shelter from the storm, the anchor of my soul. I am grateful to the Almighty for the gift I found in you. Grasias mi vida. Esta canción es para ti.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, Over again, don't make me change my mind, Or I won't live to see another day, I swear it's true... Oh yes indeed!!

I felt like I have lost one of my legs when my laptop was crashed for the past five days. It was simply annoying to know that you are being “fooled” by the websites. I was browsing for more information on Reality, Illusion and Sex Symbolism in R.K Narayan’s “The Guide” when I found one particular site which I believe has the information I needed. Happily I clicked on the link and bingo!!! I felt like a little mouse falling into a trap. In a blink of an eye, my poor laptop has been infected by 45 various viruses that not even my antivirus software could do anything to help. All at just one click! Then I realized that the site that I visited was actually a stupid porn site!! And my presentation is on the next day. I started to be a lil panicky. Thank God I have my son’s desktop, even though I don’t feel quite comfortable to continue my work there. It’s better than nothing, I comforted myself. I finally managed to complete my assignment and was ready to be presented. It was a short and si...

-This is the view on my way to school, the ever tranquil Taiping Lake Gardens, still remains the same to this very day- Instead of putting my jumbled up ideas together to complete my assignment, I found myself writing about what I have experienced today. Nothing extraordinary actually but today I manage to drive to Bangsar Village on my own. Apparently it is not that far from Midvalley but I never dared to go there all by myself. However today I did it and all for the sake of meeting my two beloved primary school classmates. To drive there alone is not something that I can brag about but it somehow gives me a little more confident to drive to any destinations in Kuala Lumpur without relying on others. I guess I need to be bolder to try and venture, not only in driving to unfamiliar places but also any other new likely dealings… ;) Just like what Vincent van Gogh once said, “What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything”. That’s very true indeed! And now I am in t...

1. 3 Word Poem Flowers Flourish Forests Sweet Sensational Swan 2. Acrostic Poem S ilky W itty A dorable N imble 3. Hello/Goodbye Poem Hello sunshine, Goodbye darkness Hello happiness, Goodbye misery Hello friends, Goodbye foes Hello truth, Goodbye lies Hello spring, Goodbye winter Hello love, Goodbye anguish 4. Haiku My Summer Rain Shower me my love My life has come to an end You...my summer rain. Unreachable Moon Unreachable moon In my heart thou shall remain Despite hurt and pain. ~Swan Princess~

It has been 20 days since I last updated my blog. Plain simple fact, I've been L.A.Z.Y. Besides busy with my work and masters class, I am also now into my new Facebook. But of course Facebook is not quite the same as writing in blogs. It offers you to keep in touch always with good friends. Yes strictly for good friends only! What exactly distinguishes a bad friend from a good friend? A bad friend fabricates a thousand and one LIES , hoping to impress their target whereas a good friend truly cares and SINCERE in everything they have to offer. And in this world, who needs to befriend a liar and a deceitful person anyways? Just something to ponder and some reflections to make...a 5-minute break from my assignment actually :)

Yes I know. I have not been updating my blog for quite some time now. As usual, I’ve been busy and lazy :) No deny about that! During the semester holidays, besides teaching, I’ve been busying myself with other activities, like watching movies with my beloved ones (the latest was The Incredible Hulk, which was simply amazing!Thanks to Rafael for insisting me to go watch this movie.) and going for theatre at KL Pac to watch Air Con. It was exciting to get to know the insight of certain group of people even though it’s not really suitable for underage kids due to its vulgarity and offensive language. The play somehow leaves me with lots of question marks in my head, all left unanswered. I guess that is what the screenwriter is trying to highlight in regards to this never-ending issue. For a first timer, Shanon Shah has done a good job. Objective achieved and message conveyed. I am looking forward to watch another play again…if time permits of course…sigh. The day I’ve been waiting for fi...

Swan Princess always asks herself... Look at me You may think you see Who I really am But you'll never know me Every day It's as if I play a part Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world But I cannot fool my heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me When will my reflection show Who I am inside I am now In a world where I Have to hide my heart And what I believe in But somehow I will show the world What's inside my heart And be loved for w...

I had a wonderful time attending an Oxford and Cambridge English Language Event or as they call it the English Cornucopia, yesterday at Sunway University College. There were many English Language activities and interesting talks by the Oxbridge Alumni. It was indeed an eye-opener for the students and it somehow boosts up their desire to perform well in their studies. Upon arrival we were welcomed by a group of student ambassadors and staff members of the university. The teachers were ushered to the concourse area for morning tea and the students were taken in groups for a campus visit. To those who took part in the essay writing competition proceeded to the classrooms directly. While waiting for the students, the teachers had the chance to get a glimpse of the university’s library which was pretty impressive. The programme lasted for about 6 hours. Even though my students did not win anything in any of the competitions held, I believe they had a great time as much as I did.

Un mensaje para mi RC

Mi héroe de practicar sus habilidades en Balangkas Kali. ¿No es asombroso que?

The two-week school holidays finally has come to an end. Today was the first day of school. What have I achieved in this past two weeks? Well for the first week my holidays were gone, due to the course that I had to attend. Even though it was tiring I have learnt a lot of things during the course, and I can say that I have enjoyed myself listening to the talks and lectures. As for the second week of the holidays, I stayed at home with my children and later decided to leave for my hometown. And yes, I watched 3 movies during the holidays; Narnia, Indiana Jones and finally Long Khong 2 (a Thai movie). I don’t want to talk much about the Thai movie as it was really unpleasant and gross. As for Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, it was good at first, with the stunts and the chase in the jungle. I have no comments on Ford’s acting. As expected he’s a great actor, I love his smiles…priceless. But the ending of the movie sort of turned me off. From the adventures and actions,...

Harrison Ford...here I come!!! Will tell more about his latest Indiana Jones movie after watching it tonight. Ciao!!!

I was feeling rather upset yesterday. Upset about something that has been bothering me lately. However, towards the end of the day I felt great. Great because I have decided to escape to the magic land and be with the spirits of the trees, mythological woodland creatures, the kings and queens of the past in The Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian. The movie was simply awesome like expected. I think it has been more than two years since I watched The Chronicles of Narnia - The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. The kids have really grown. Peter looks more mature, Susan and Lucy seem to be taller and Edmund…hmmm he looks more and more like Kevin!! Wonder where he is now, are you in Russia still Kev? Anyways, like I said earlier the movie is simply awesome. The four siblings return to Narnia only to find that everyone and everything they knew before have all been dead and destroyed. They have returned after 1300 years they left Narnia. The kingdom is ruled by Lord Miraz who has...

Friendship is like the running stream...endless, cool and refreshing. ~Swan Princess~ I am finally home. Well, it's not that I have been outstation for too long. It was only for two weeks and in between, I came back during the weekends but it just feel so good to be home again, to be in my warm and cosy bed. The course went well. It was great to meet new faces and making new friends, true and honest ones of course. And it was a surprise too when I met one of my old friends during college. She still can recognise me, or maybe she saw my name tag. We didn't get the chance to really sit and talk as she was there for a course too but different from mine. All the courses schedules were very tight. Nevertheless, we managed to exchange mobile numbers and she gave me a website of our ex-college mates. It was really cool to see most of our friends joining and keeping in touch with each other through the forum. Well, I immediately register myself too!! Waiting for them to organise a reun...

You Follow Your Heart You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

I thought I will not be having the chance to put my thoughts on this page of mine for the next two weeks. But here I am again. I am back from the course for the weekends. After three days there, I have learnt that it wasn’t that bad after all. It was pretty tiring though. The schedule was very tight and we have three sessions everyday, right from 8 o’clock in the morning to 10:30 at night. Every year on the 16th May, all teachers in Malaysia celebrated Teacher’s Day. Even though we may not celebrate our special day as special and as grand as the secretaries where famous singers and performers are engaged to entertain them during their Secretaries' Week, we still rejoice ourselves in our own moderate ways. However, this year I celebrated Teacher’s Day with my new friends, the fellow participants. To be exact there were no celebration as we were so engaged with the activities during the course. We only wish each other, and I received quite a number of text messages from friends and s...

Complete silence for two long weeks. My breakaway?? Naaaa...it's more like being sent to a torture chamber. I hate the idea of leaving my work now, especially when my own children and students are in the middle of their mid-sem exam, but I have no choice. Well, what's the point of grumbling? I might as well look at it positively. Who knows I will be enjoying myself listening to the endless talks by the officers from the government, meet new faces and enjoying the "luxurious" facilities of the hotel. Whatever it is, I will try my best to fit myself and will try to take pleasure in every single moment that I'll be spending there. What I know for sure is that I am surely going to miss my lil baby girl!! To all my friends, adios amigos!!

As I look out of the window… Lightning strikes across the sky like the Excalibur in the night, Thunder roars out loud creating a sweet quiver in my heart. Isn’t it a serene feeling? Sitting here by the window, The sensation of the cool breeze kissing my cheeks, caressing my soft skin, stroking my lustrous hair. The limbs of the trees gently sway as the north wind blows And the rain falls pitter-patter on the concrete walls. Isn’t it a “serene” feeling? As I sit by the window… With falling rain and shimmering lightning, Trying hard to answer my chemistry paper!! The things that my 4SP1 students might have in their minds during their chemistry exam today.

Life has been very hectic and tiring for the past few months, especially in April. It seems to me that the dateline for my assignments at work and my studies are all in April. I hardly have time to update this personal space of mine here. The important events in April which make me feel like I need more than 24/7: 1. 10th April - Choral Speaking competition which was held in SAM Bestari. The students performed well, it's just that this time luck wasn't on our side. The students were upset when the judge announced that we were in the second place. However, we managed to compete again for the district level next week, 17th April. Oh gosh!! Same day as my seminar! 2. 17th April - For the past two weeks I have been busy preparing and working on my paper for the Australian and Canadian Literature Seminar. As it was my first time presenting, I have to really make sure that I am 100% prepared and do not mumble in front of others. And of course I pray so hard hoping that not many would...

Below is the abstract of the paper that I am working on currently, for Australian and Canadian Literature course. The seminar will be on the 17th April but I need to get it done by this coming Thursday. Oh gosh! Thinking about the coming seminar alone is already good enough to give me nightmares and send the chill to my spine. Will I be able to make it?? This study is based on two of Tim Winton’s work, namely, “The Turning” and “Family” from his fiction novel, The Turning. These two works provide a brief overview on the frailties of ordinary people whose lives are not what they had hoped for. The characters are often hurt, irritated, frustrated and damaged. In “The Turning”, the hardship of the main character, Raelene, seems to awaken her that she is missing something in her life and is trying to do her best to seek the reason why she is feeling such way. She illustrates herself as a woman who is “hungry”; in search of food for her empty soul. Whereas in “Family”, deals about the pa...

A pesar de todos, Usted es todavía el que necesito en mi vida Eres mi todo todavía!! Esta canción es para ti... Eres todo en mi, el sol que me ilumina y me hace tan feliz; la fuerza que conduce mi existir, solo tu, mi amor; Si me abrazo a ti, yo siento que tu esencia se dispersa en mie no queda ni un espacio en mi sentir, eres tu mi luz Eres todo en mi, y lluevo entre mis labios todo tu sabor, cruzare mi bien oceanos mas profundos por saber de ti; Eres todo en mi, por siempre y para siempre Desde que te vi; nunca mas tendré temor, pues con tu amor volvi a sentir y a renacer Volare por ti a un mundo donde beba solo de tu amor, dejando la distancia tras de mí, solos tu y yo Bailaremos hoy sobre una nube blanca que en el cielo esta; tus ojos como estrellas brillaran para mi, por mi; Jamas se ira la magia de sentir tu aliento sobre mi volcando mis sentidos para amar; solo por tu amor, mi amor

My writing is based on the winner of the Orange Prize, Kate Grenville’s "The Secret River" which was shortlisted for THE Man BOOKER PRIZE 2006. I will discuss on how a man’s ignorance and desires leads to fear and disaster and eventually leads to the conflict between the ex-convict settlers and the aborigines. What are men’s desires? Women? Possessions and wealth? Power and authority? A sense of belonging? I am not being judgmental but I believe men desire everything that has been mentioned above and at times can be beyond needs as well. Hence, men will do anything they can to achieve what they dream of and what they aim in life. And it is through this process that many weaker souls and frail hearts are deeply wounded and torn apart, even blood can be shed, human life can be in jeopardy and threatened, and all these occurred due to the men’s negligence. In “The Secret River”, Grenville has brilliantly portrayed the conflict between the white settlers who wanted to s...

My hero for tonight as seen from the above pictures...hehehehe... Yippeeee....yipppeeeee!!!!! At last I manage to finish my 10-page essay. Yes, it is no big deal writing an essay with 10 pages, however this time I feel like I have written nothing but junks. Anyways, what the heck!! I have handed over the assignment to my lecturer tonight and I am relieved. At least tonight I have lessened one burden. One down, two to go! So, now is the time to pamper myself!! After class, my friends and I decided to go for a movie, which we have planned since last week. We managed to get to the cinema on time. 10,000 B.C is our choice for tonight. The movie is good, I like the plot and the setting especially. There is nothing unusual or extraordinary about the storyline. Simple and plain but interesting. It is a mythological and a prehistoric age movie where the hero has to embark on a long journey in order to rescue the love of his life and later realises that the fate of his people is also in his h...

I’ve been sick again. This is the third time in this year, I think. My health is not really in a good condition lately. With the amount of work at school (the latest is taking over the school choral speaking group for Choral Speaking Competition from another teacher who is seriously ill), plus the numbers of awaiting novel reviews and write ups, 24/7 doesn't seem to be enough for me. Since I am on medical leave today, I thought I can try to work on one of the novels that I have been assigned to, but to no avail. I am just wasting my time and my headache is becoming worse. I need to recover fast, can’t afford to be sick for too long. Hence, I stop reading and decided to drop few lines here. In regards to my study, here are the things that need my attention fast: 1) 2 novel reviews, The Secret River by Kate Grenville and The Turning by Tim Winton– power point slides and write up. 2) A 10-page essay on the chosen novel from African and Caribbean Literature. I am considering The Disgra...

Like many other nights, tonight too I can't seem to put myself to sleep. Got tired of reading my novels, need a break. Finally, I came up with this, my latest poem... When I step into your world In the time of dimness You shower me with sunlight When life seems unjust You bring me fairness When my feet can’t stand You bestow me the strength I feel you touch me in the night I feel your kisses in the cold wind Whenever I close my eyes I want it to be your face that I see Whenever I sleep at night I want it to be a dream of you Whenever I give my heart I want it to be held by you!

This is for you MY BEETHOVEN, my Valentine!!! You know who you are...

Finally I managed to complete my assignment. It is definitely not an easy task for me, but I finally did it!! Whether or not it’s good, I don’t care. What’s important is that my task is accomplished even though it took me longer time than expected. Eventually, I enjoyed reading the novel and the turmoil in Antoinette’s life managed to touch my innermost soul. The brief study is based on Jean Rhys’s work, namely the “Wide Sargasso Sea”. In this study, I focused on the sombre experience of the female protagonist, Antoinette Cosway in the patriarchal society and what leads to her manner that causes the tragic and tear-jerking ending to her life. I am not in favour of glorifying committing suicide as an ultimate way out in any calamities stumbled upon, but my intention is to focus on the causes of the action of Antoinette Cosway, are none other due to the mistreatment of the male-dominant society towards the females. It is important to bear in mind that committing suicide cannot be applie...

It has been a long time since I put my thoughts down on paper…well, in this blog of mine literally. Yes, life has been very busy and hectic these days. I don’t even have time to chat with my friends online anymore!! In a way, it’s good. I now spend most of my time with work at school, my house work and assignments at home. This is the 7th week of my first semester as a post graduate student. I find it pretty tough to cope with everything at the same time and God knows how I wish I can be a full time student like before!! But I remember one of my lecturers used to tell us that all the hardships we face today will soon go by. Yes, I will go through it somehow…that’s what I keep telling myself. Since its Sunday today and I have no plans to go out anywhere (as if I always do), I have been trying to develop my review on the novel that I have been assigned to. Like previous research work of mine, this time I have to come up with something similar too and it so happens to be my favourite topi...

I was driving alone to campus when I hear this song over the radio that day. I have loved this song and have been a great fan of Elvis Presley since I was a kid. There’s something about this song that touches my heart. I listen to the lyrics attentively; trying to seek what is it about this song that makes me feel this way. Maybe I didn't treat you Quite as good as I should have Maybe I didn't love you Quite as often as I could have Little things I should have said and done I just never took the time You were always on my mind You were always on my mind Maybe I didn't hold you All those lonely, lonely times And I guess I never told you I'm so happy that you're mine If I make you feel second best Girl, I'm sorry I was blind You were always on my mind You were always on my mind Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died Give me, give me one more chance To keep you satisfied, satisfied Little things I should have said and done I just never took the time ...