Understanding The Drama In Life

The changing hues of the sky, Deliberately bring tears to my eyes, The falling leaves of the autumn, Never can it make this broken heart blossoms. As the winter wind caresses my naked face, I stand here all alone in complete darkness feeling so chill… so cold… freezing… There’s no way to go, no way to hide Entirely lost… my soul is.

Thank God! It is over at last!! I have finally finished the last paper for this semester and I will be free from the work load, at least until the end of December. I am pleased with the marks awarded by our supervisor for the project works, but at the same time I also feel sorry for some of my friends who have been very hardworking and not being evaluated appropriately compared to one or two other friends who obviously “work smart” in accomplishing the task given. I know not what seem to be the shortcomings here, but I guess these things do happen anywhere. This time maybe it is just his “good luck”. It is hard indeed for those who work diligently to accept this unfortunate fate, but what I believe is that you guys have gained more than just what you have expected. You may seem to lose from one side but on the other hand, unknowingly you have learnt a lot from these happenings. I know it is easy for me to say, but I believe the marks awarded are nothing compared to the knowledge that w...

Here I am again in this 'lil page of mine after few days of silence, not knowing what to say, what to write. It has been raining for many days and that makes the weather very soothing and cooling. But too bad the moon is hiding somewhere behind those clouds. And tonight like many other nights before, I couldn't put myself to sleep. Thinking about the books I need to study in preparation for the final exam. Need to stay focus, just for a 'lil while. God, why too many distractions????? Only one more paper to go. Then I will be free before the new semester starts early next year. A friend told me that the results for the 2 papers are out. That fast? So, logged in the student portal for the exam results. I am not satisfied at all with one of the papers. This stupid paper is gonna pull my cgpa down. S***!!!!!!!!!!!! Got a title for my next poem..."Autumn in my heart, Winter in my soul" The wind blows my heart like the falling leaves, Then what???????????? Oh boy! Can...

I know where you are...

The house is very quiet. In fact the whole neighbourhood is in total silence, not even the howling of the stray dogs. Such a peaceful night. Everyone is sailing in their sea of dreams. Why am I still here, wide awake? Why do I not feel sleepy at all tonight?? And I don't feel like studying either. The moon is hiding tonight, hiding behind the clouds. Not a single star can be seen either. The sky is pretty cloudy, perhaps it will rain. No, no I don't think so. It is also windy, so the wind will eventually blow the clouds away to some other parts of the sky. That's great, means I can see my moon again! It still looks beautiful in the sky even though it's only half. Hmm... maybe after this I will continue admiring my hidden moon and try to finish my novel before I too can join others in the land of dreams. I am leaving this 'lil page of mine with a song in my heart...G' night and sweet dreams wherever you are... Yang amat ku terkilan Dikau pergi tiada pesanan Yang ...

Two papers done, two more to go. Thank God, today’s paper is not too tough. I was so worried because I didn’t have any time to go through my books yesterday. But how can I study knowing that my friend was having a complication with her 6 month-old pregnancy. Spent the whole day at the maternity ward with her and helping her out with few things. It was a pleasant feeling to be in the ward to see the newborn babies in the nursery. Some were sleeping soundly and one or two were crying with their high pitch ‘lil voices which sound like music to me. I realized that there is a notice saying the hospital is a baby-friendly hospital, which means bottle milk for the newborns is strictly prohibited. It is indeed a good attempt of the government to encourage breastfeeding instead of using the formula milk. It is essential to know that breastfeeding has a lot of benefits to the babies as well as to the mothers and even if you are able to breastfeed for only a short period, your baby will experienc...

Gerhana yang melanda seluruh alam semesta dunia gelap sunyi tanpa cahaya begitulah hatiku terasa Siapa yang relai bernafas dalam derita membiar perasaan jadi sengsara dicengkam sedih yang tak terduga Ke mana hilangnya keindahan yang ingin kudamba diselimut rasa sepi keseorangan dihiris kelukaan Sentuhan mu yang pertama bagaikan madu menyiram asmara tapi itu hanyalah kepalsuan tersingkir aku di dalam khayalan Perlukah aku bercinta andai hidup berteman airmata biarkan saja aku bersendiri usah kau memandang wajahku lagi Sesungguhnya tiada jalan teduh untuk bersama ku rela kepedihan menjadi luka berakhirlah riwayat cintaku Sentuhan mu yang pertama bagaikan madu menyiram asmara tapi itu hanyalah kepalsuan tersingkir aku di dalam khayalan Perlukah aku bercinta andai hidup berteman airmata biarkan saja aku bersendiri usah kau memandang wajahku lagi...

How many hearts has he been stealing? The way he stole my heart How many hearts has he been breaking? The way he broke my heart I wonder, I wonder, I wonder But I really don’t want to know. Now I am standing here all alone, No more telephone calls to drive my blues away, to wake me in the middle of my sleep, No one to wipe my tears, No one to keep me warm, No one to make me strong. You lifted me high and let me fall in the abyss, How do I fly now when I have lost the wind beneath my wings? What am I to do? Wish it could be like before, But he doesn’t need me anymore.

Eid is a time to come together as a community and to renew friendship and family ties. This is a time for peace for all Muslims in the world to devote to prayers and mutual well-being. Muslims in Malaysia celebrate Eid like any other muslims throughout the world. The night before Eid will be filled with the takbiir which is held in the mosques. In my parents’ home, we will always have some men from the mosque nearby to recite the takbiir and they will repeat this recital from house to house. Eid also witnesses a huge migratory pattern of the muslims, from big metropolitan cities to rural areas. This is what is known as Balik Kampung - literally going back to home town to celebrate Eid with parents and families. Big cities like Kuala Lumpur will be like dead cities. You can actually sleep on the road for awhile. There will be no cars or at least the amount of traffic will not be as heavy as the normal days. My normal routine, one day before the Eid, is none other but to help my mom and ...